Category: Memory

Music…

Metal Health (Bang Your Head)

Metal Health

Quiet Riot

and Words

Well I’m an axe grinder
Pile driver
Mama says
That I never never mind her

Got no brains
I’m insane
The teacher says
That I’m one big pain

I’m like a laser
Six-string razor

Lyric excerpts from Musixmatch.

I wake obscenely early on a Saturday morning; it’s maybe 5:30am.  I get a quick breakfast and gather my things to head to school.  Sometimes my mom drops me off, but today I ride my bicycle to school. As I leave my house, there’s a chill in the air, and fog covers everything.  The streetlights I pass create a cone of light, more visible with the fog; they illuminate the roads as I spin over the sidewalks.  I next ride over the bridge over the Florida’s Turnpike as I approach my high school, South Plantation.  Finally, I lock my bike on the familiar fence between the faculty lot and the football field.  Today, I represent my school in competition.

Continue reading “Heavy Metal Mathematics” →

Music…

Na Na Hey Hey Kiss Him Goodbye

20 #1’s: Classic Rock

Steam

and Words

Na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na
Hey hey hey, goodbye

He’ll never love you the way that I love you
‘Cause if he did, no no, he wouldn’t make you cry
He might be thrillin’ baby, but a-my love (my love, my love)
So dog-gone willin’, so kiss him (I wanna see you kiss him)
Go on and kiss him (I wanna see you kiss him) goodbye, na-na

Lyric excerpts from Musixmatch.

A little over a year ago, my friend read though a number of my posts on Facebook; he noted the length of each post and the subject matter, which centered around social issues.  He suggested that I start a blog.  This was a great idea.  While you can certainly mark each post as publicly visible, there are limitations to posts on Facebook.  There are many limitations for formatting your posts; you can’t emphasize words (with different sized fonts, italics or boldface), you have limited ways to embed images, among other restrictions.  Finally, one of the biggest motivating factors was that the content would be strictly mine.  If I should happen to close my Facebook account, it doesn’t simply go into the ether.

Continue reading “Goodbye, Spotify” →

Music…

I’m Gonna Be (500 Miles)

Sunshine on Leith

The Proclaimers

and Words

When I wake up, well I know I’m gonna be
I’m gonna be the man who wakes up next to you
When I go out, yeah I know I’m gonna be
I’m gonna be the man who goes along with you

If I get drunk, well I know I’m gonna be
I’m gonna be the man who gets drunk next to you
And if I haver, hey I know I’m gonna be
I’m gonna be the man who’s havering to you

Lyric excerpts from Musixmatch.

It is the holiday season in 2011, and we shopped at the Microsoft Store.  We glanced at tech and there was a small device off at the corner of the store.  This particular device is an activity tracker called a Fitbit.  This model, the Ultra (their second model), came in two colors: cyan and plum.  We got one of each color, thinking that we would like some motivation to stay active.

Continue reading “To walk around the globe” →

Music…

In the Air Tonight

Face Value

Phil Collins

and Words

I can feel it coming in the air tonight, (Oh lord)
And I’ve been waiting for this moment, for all my life, (Oh lord)
Can you feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord, (Oh lord)

Well, if you told me you were drowning
I would not lend a hand
I’ve seen your face before my friend
But I don’t know if you know who I am

Lyric excerpts from Musixmatch.

It was 1984 and a great many of us stayed home on Friday evenings or we alternatively set the timer on the VCR to record a television show.  That’s right, a television show, but it was no ordinary television show.  It was a delicious marriage of wickedness, style, music, and tropical paradise.  This show was Miami Vice, even the name spoke of tropical paradise and wickedness.

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Music…

The Show

Lenka

Lenka

and Words

I’m just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go, can’t do it alone
I’ve tried and I don’t know why

Slow it down, make it stop or else my heart is going to pop
‘Cause it’s too much, yeah it’s a lot to be something I’m not
I’m a fool out of love ’cause I just can’t get enough

Lyric excerpts from Musixmatch.

It was 1982 when I first became interested in baseball.  I was fourteen at the time and for many years baseball was simply the hard wall that officially signaled the end of the Saturday morning cartoons.  A few times I watched as the games started in these impossibly green fields and abundant sunshine.  I learned some of the terms through mere absorption; much like I learned the names of historically good teams like the Yankees and the Dodgers.  In fact, the Dodgers defeated the Yankees just the year before.

This year a little team dared to dream; the Atlanta Braves had endured many miserable years of poor baseball.  In 1981 they finished next to last in the National League West division.  Consequently, they had no reason to believe that they’d do any better, except that they did.

Continue reading “For Love of the Game” →

Music…

Do They Know It’s Christmas?

Do They Know It’s Christmas?

Band Aid

and Words

It’s Christmas time
There’s no need to be afraid
At Christmas time
We let in light and we banish shade

And in our world of plenty
We can spread a smile of joy
Throw your arms around the world
At Christmas Time

Lyric excerpts from Musixmatch.

It’s the winter of 1984, and there’s a little song that gets increasingly more air play.  Both the local radio stations and MTV play it.  Music was my refuge and I listened (and watched videos), but somehow this song and its video was different.  This song is both familiar and different.  I hear vocals from many voices which I recognize, but the name ‘Band Aid’ is not one I recognize.  The video similarly has a collection of many artists all collaborating on this one project.  That song, of course, is “Do They Know It’s Christmas?”

Continue reading “My favorite Christmas song” →

Music…

You’re My Heart, You’re My Soul

The First Album

Modern Talking

and Words

Deep in my heart, there’s a fire, a burnin’ heart
Deep in my heart, there’s desire for a start
I’m dying in emotion
It’s my world in fantasy
I’m livin’ in my, livin’ in my dreams

You’re my heart, you’re my soul
I keep it shining everywhere I go
You’re my heart, you’re my soul
I’ll be holding you forever
Stay with you together

Lyric excerpts from Musixmatch.

I felt liberated upon graduating high school.  Everything was rushing until the very end, only to be followed by an abrupt and eerie silence.  I coasted for about a month.  I bused or waited on tables for a bit, but not anything that I really remember.  In some ways that summer was transformational.  I survived high school by integrating into the realm of everyone.  Never did I prostitute my values, but I wasn’t really being who I really was; I wasn’t my most authentic self.  Though that was largely driven by the simple fact that I didn’t know who I really was.  There were very few people like me in my high school, and basically no one with the same experiences.

Continue reading “Finding my kin, among a dozen dance floors” →

Music…

Pac-Man Fever

Pac-Man Fever

Buckner & Garcia

and Words

I got a pocket full of quarters, and I’m headed to the arcade.
I don’t have a lot of money, but I’m bringing ev’rything I made.
I’ve got a callus on my finger, and my shoulder’s hurting too.
I’m gonna eat them all up, just as soon as they turn blue.

‘Cause I’ve got Pac-Man fever;
Pac-Man fever.
It’s driving me crazy.
Driving me crazy.

Lyric excerpts from Musixmatch.

This was me circa 1983; I won’t deny it.  I lived near the Grand Prix Race-O-Rama; they claimed that they were the World’s Largest Arcade.  I spent more hours at Grand Prix that I care to admit; it embarrasses me to this day.  I wasn’t able to drive then, so I either got a ride from my sister or rode my bicycle there.  When I did the latter, it took me the better part of an hour but did it happily.

Once there, it was my refuge; it was this fifteen-year-old’s Nirvana.  It housed multiple gigantic rooms with stand-up arcade games that lined the walls packed tightly, separated by only inches.  The centers of each room were outfitted with row upon row of cocktail table versions of the same arcade games.  The rooms were illuminated by the glow from each screen as each game was played or they continued in ‘point of sale’ mode.  The sound on each arcade game was configured so that you could near it, but it didn’t overwhelm anyone else’s playing.  The effect was that the entire room was bathed in kaleidoscope of lights from these screens and their sound effects.  Their combination was both never precisely the same, but it was always there and always consistent.  It became the soundtrack to my teenage years in a twisted way.

Continue reading “Becoming the master of my own world, in 25¢ increments” →

Music…

Without You

Nilsson Schmilsson

Harry Nilsson

and Words

No, I can’t forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that’s just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows
Yes, it shows

No, I can’t forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now it’s only fair that I should let you know
What you should know

Lyric excerpts from Musixmatch.

I know this may seem surreal, but the first time I heard a rendition of this song, it was a Spanish cover.  Based strictly on the time released, we must have been in Puerto Rico.  More than once did I try to find that particular rendition, though sadly I was never able to track it down.  I didn’t quite remember the artist nor the name of the song in Spanish.  I mostly remember the first few notes which set the tone for the remainder of the song.

Continue reading “Why does agony make us feel alive?” →

Music…

Never Had

10 Years (Soundtrack)

Oscar Isaac

and Words

I’ve been gone for.. so long now
Chasing everything that’s new..
I’ve forgotten how I got here
I’ve not forgotten you..

We were just children, with our eyes opened, and
You were all that I could see
You came close enough to know my heart-beat, but
Still not close enough for me..

Lyric excerpts from Genius.com.

I could tell stories of great romances in high school.  There are great tales of great spiritual synchronicity or emotional belonging with a soulmate.  I can recount the extraordinary circumstances by which a young woman and I were thrown together by fate.  Sadly, they’d all be lies.  My time in high school was socially awkward and even attended my own prom stag.

I was ambitious and generally happy in high school; my friends mostly accepted me for who I was.  I remain in contact with many of them.  Naturally, I had great interest in a number of young women but sadly never worked up the courage to approach them romantically.  It may seem uneventful and maybe a little sad, but it’s the truth.  I suspect many stories of high school were precisely like this.

Continue reading “A missed connection with that high school crush” →